Hiya =]
Well, I haven't posted a message for about a day I think, anyway, how are you all doing? I'm doing fine. Yesterday I spent the day with one of my friends Leah. She's pretty cool, we used to be best friends for ages, but then we just kind of, drifted apart a bit, but then with all the stuff thats happening at school we've kind of got back together again, and I love her family as well, we all get on really well and I hope that we work things out and become friends out of school.
And then today, well, I've been watching wimbledon, and well, I have to say. Roger Federer. PHWOAR. He is FINE! Seriously, I am not taking the mic, his body, his hair, his face, his eyes, his legs, everything, Yum !! I love him, sadly he lost in the final, I felt bad for him, he looked so sweet in his little cashmere cardigan. Bless him, but I guess he has won it for 5 years in a row before, so I guess the other one deserved to win it. But you know, he's not fit, well not as fit as Roger.
And I also have another song of the moment. Ashley Tisdale - Headstrong. Love it ! Just makes me wanna get up and dance .
I was also thinking, because I was talking about fancying Roger Federer, I realised, there is in fact a lot of people that I have a crush on who are famous. So I have decided to write them down. These arn't in order by the way:
Roger Federer
Calvin Harris
Jack Penate
Mitchel Musso
Jason Dolley
David Henrie
Drake Bell
Josh Peck
Danny Jones
Tom Fletcher
Harry Judd
Mark Ronson
Ryan Tedder
Stuart (Big Brother)
Roy Stride
Sam Darbyshire (Fletch on Hollyoaks.)
Andrew Moss (Rhys on Hollyoaks.)
I think thats all.
Agree or disagree on any of these ? Let me know =]
All my Love xx
Sunday 6 July 2008
Thursday 3 July 2008
2 whole days !
Hey people :D
Two days since my last post, sorry about that, had some trouble about trying to get back to school ...
The education welfare officer is coming round soon ... I'm scared . I really don't want to go back .
I spoke to some of the girls involved at school today ...
One of them, seemed okay, but I don't know if I can trust her, because she acted like she was fine before I came back last time, so I'm unsure, but we were both honest with each other and got some stuff off out chests ...
One of them was just nice to catch up with , she makes me laugh , we seem ok, she seems oblivious to the whole issue, which is actually nice because I'm sick of hearing it.
And one of them just told me about it all, and sounded pretty pissed off, but we had a laugh too, she told me that the other girl (who is kind of the ring leader of the group) has fallen out with me, and that when she got told off for being nasty to me, she got mad, cried, and hit a wall :
I was like ... oops : ...
In other news, I spent some nice quality time with my dad today ...
Sometimes me and my dad have the worst arguments, he can leave me so mad and in tears because sometimes hes just so, unreasonable and he can never understand my side of the story, or my point of view, and he just goes into his own world.
But today was really nice, we took the dog a walk to the park, and had a chat about everything thats been happening in my life, and in his, and, we just got on really well.
And then he made me pasta with cheese for tea :D ! Yum, and for once, he didn't moan at me when I ate the cookies and cream ice cream out of the tub. Which was really nice.
Maybe my dad was in a good mood because he got a new phone, its a nice one too, its a Sony Erricsson K770i . Its pretty cool. I wanted it, but he said no :(
Ah well, I'll save up and by myself another new one, I was the new skinny sony erricsson one, its silver, I've forgot what its called, but its cool :D
Well, I'm meant to be going to bed early tonight, but its 3:16 in the morning so I think thats out of the window ... don't you ?
Song of the moment ! "One for the radio - Mcfly"
What an awesome comeback song !
I actually love Mcfly tbh ...
For my 13th birthday my mum bought me tickets to see them, and she thought I would be really chuffed, and I was in my grebby stage then , so I wasn't, and I didn't see the concert.
I always felt really bad, because me and my mum had had a tough year, and she bought me them tickets to cheer me up.
I'm such a bitch sometimes.
If you ever read this mum I LOVE YOU XX
And with that I'll be going . I love you all too
xxx
Two days since my last post, sorry about that, had some trouble about trying to get back to school ...
The education welfare officer is coming round soon ... I'm scared . I really don't want to go back .
I spoke to some of the girls involved at school today ...
One of them, seemed okay, but I don't know if I can trust her, because she acted like she was fine before I came back last time, so I'm unsure, but we were both honest with each other and got some stuff off out chests ...
One of them was just nice to catch up with , she makes me laugh , we seem ok, she seems oblivious to the whole issue, which is actually nice because I'm sick of hearing it.
And one of them just told me about it all, and sounded pretty pissed off, but we had a laugh too, she told me that the other girl (who is kind of the ring leader of the group) has fallen out with me, and that when she got told off for being nasty to me, she got mad, cried, and hit a wall :
I was like ... oops : ...
In other news, I spent some nice quality time with my dad today ...
Sometimes me and my dad have the worst arguments, he can leave me so mad and in tears because sometimes hes just so, unreasonable and he can never understand my side of the story, or my point of view, and he just goes into his own world.
But today was really nice, we took the dog a walk to the park, and had a chat about everything thats been happening in my life, and in his, and, we just got on really well.
And then he made me pasta with cheese for tea :D ! Yum, and for once, he didn't moan at me when I ate the cookies and cream ice cream out of the tub. Which was really nice.
Maybe my dad was in a good mood because he got a new phone, its a nice one too, its a Sony Erricsson K770i . Its pretty cool. I wanted it, but he said no :(
Ah well, I'll save up and by myself another new one, I was the new skinny sony erricsson one, its silver, I've forgot what its called, but its cool :D
Well, I'm meant to be going to bed early tonight, but its 3:16 in the morning so I think thats out of the window ... don't you ?
Song of the moment ! "One for the radio - Mcfly"
What an awesome comeback song !
I actually love Mcfly tbh ...
For my 13th birthday my mum bought me tickets to see them, and she thought I would be really chuffed, and I was in my grebby stage then , so I wasn't, and I didn't see the concert.
I always felt really bad, because me and my mum had had a tough year, and she bought me them tickets to cheer me up.
I'm such a bitch sometimes.
If you ever read this mum I LOVE YOU XX
And with that I'll be going . I love you all too
xxx
Tuesday 1 July 2008
50/50 ...
Yo Peeps !
Well today was meant to be the hottest day of the year in the UK. And, I think it was. It was nice.
I woke up and it seemed like it was going to be a nice day. That is until my dad came home from work early.
So I asked him why he was home early, and he said he needed to talk to me.
Well thats short for SHIZZ :
Basically my mum and dad had recieved a letter from the school I had applied for, they said no to my application. Which I was pretty bummed out about. But we have the option to appeal, I don't know what that involves, whether it involves an interview or a pursuasive letter or what, I just have my fingers crossed that it works out and that I get a place in the school.
Furthermore, my head of year had rang my mum, saying that if I want to then I can move forms, and that if I don't get back into school education welfare have to come round, well I said bring education welfare round, because I'm not going in.
I know its my head of years job to get me in school, but I've made it clear that I don't want anything to do with it anymore, and I just can't stick the fact that I might have to go back there. I hate it, when I'm there I just feel nervous, alone and like I'm being singled out and picked on all the time, and they can exclude me from the school for all I care, cause I'm not going there.
Then my dad said that he would take us out for a meal, so we went to bartlewood lodge for a carvary, it was going really well till my dad had to open his gob and start talking about the school thing, asking me loads of questions that I just don't want to answer, saying that I think I'm always right and that I'm hiding away. I know for a fact I'm not always right, and that me being off school like this is wrong, but its really hard to go back in, I don't want to go back, I am determined to go to a different school.
Plus, why should I get kicked out the form? One of the girls who's being horrible to me should get kicked out the form, she wasn't originally in our form anyway. Boot her out! I'm not moving around the school over and and over again. No I'm so over it!
On the way back from the slightly awkward meal, we were driving past and I saw my good friend Chris. I missed him a lot to be honest, so when I got home I rang him.
We spoke and he asked me if the rumours about me moving school were true, I explained to him that they were, and he said that I should'nt let a couple of people make me want to move forms, and that my situation is kind of like his with his friends. I appreciated his advice, he probably is my best friend, I wish I could just hand around with guys all the time, there so much easier to cope with and they don't give you bitchy crap like girls do. Why is that? Does anybody know?
But of course, if I hung around with lads I would get accused of being a slag, a lesbian, or a tomboy, and I don't want that to be honest.
Everything just seems confusing to be honest, I don't know what to do, I'm scared about the future and I just want to hide away from it all. The worst thing of all is that I can't cry it out, I just seem to not be able to cry. I'm scared about whats going to happen, I'm just overly anxious about everything...
In other news, I am IN LOVE with "Shake it- Metro Station"
In all fairness I had never heard of the band or the song until I read Mitchel Musso's blog.
What an absolutly awesome song!
And if Mitchel ever reads this ... Thanks for informing me about such a cool band , they rock!
Well I guess thats all for now, I would love your opinion about what I should do about school, actually, if anything its not an opinion, its more like advice. Please help me :(
Hugs && Kisses xx
Well today was meant to be the hottest day of the year in the UK. And, I think it was. It was nice.
I woke up and it seemed like it was going to be a nice day. That is until my dad came home from work early.
So I asked him why he was home early, and he said he needed to talk to me.
Well thats short for SHIZZ :
Basically my mum and dad had recieved a letter from the school I had applied for, they said no to my application. Which I was pretty bummed out about. But we have the option to appeal, I don't know what that involves, whether it involves an interview or a pursuasive letter or what, I just have my fingers crossed that it works out and that I get a place in the school.
Furthermore, my head of year had rang my mum, saying that if I want to then I can move forms, and that if I don't get back into school education welfare have to come round, well I said bring education welfare round, because I'm not going in.
I know its my head of years job to get me in school, but I've made it clear that I don't want anything to do with it anymore, and I just can't stick the fact that I might have to go back there. I hate it, when I'm there I just feel nervous, alone and like I'm being singled out and picked on all the time, and they can exclude me from the school for all I care, cause I'm not going there.
Then my dad said that he would take us out for a meal, so we went to bartlewood lodge for a carvary, it was going really well till my dad had to open his gob and start talking about the school thing, asking me loads of questions that I just don't want to answer, saying that I think I'm always right and that I'm hiding away. I know for a fact I'm not always right, and that me being off school like this is wrong, but its really hard to go back in, I don't want to go back, I am determined to go to a different school.
Plus, why should I get kicked out the form? One of the girls who's being horrible to me should get kicked out the form, she wasn't originally in our form anyway. Boot her out! I'm not moving around the school over and and over again. No I'm so over it!
On the way back from the slightly awkward meal, we were driving past and I saw my good friend Chris. I missed him a lot to be honest, so when I got home I rang him.
We spoke and he asked me if the rumours about me moving school were true, I explained to him that they were, and he said that I should'nt let a couple of people make me want to move forms, and that my situation is kind of like his with his friends. I appreciated his advice, he probably is my best friend, I wish I could just hand around with guys all the time, there so much easier to cope with and they don't give you bitchy crap like girls do. Why is that? Does anybody know?
But of course, if I hung around with lads I would get accused of being a slag, a lesbian, or a tomboy, and I don't want that to be honest.
Everything just seems confusing to be honest, I don't know what to do, I'm scared about the future and I just want to hide away from it all. The worst thing of all is that I can't cry it out, I just seem to not be able to cry. I'm scared about whats going to happen, I'm just overly anxious about everything...
In other news, I am IN LOVE with "Shake it- Metro Station"
In all fairness I had never heard of the band or the song until I read Mitchel Musso's blog.
What an absolutly awesome song!
And if Mitchel ever reads this ... Thanks for informing me about such a cool band , they rock!
Well I guess thats all for now, I would love your opinion about what I should do about school, actually, if anything its not an opinion, its more like advice. Please help me :(
Hugs && Kisses xx
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